I think I'm getting better. I'm still feeling bad, but not like I was a couple weeks ago. For those of you still wondering: a girl and I were in a relationship that got fairly serious for a while. Certain factors made it difficult to remain as we were, so we eventually had to stop it. I wasn't happy about it; she means a lot to me.

Now I find myself wondering all sorts of things. Will anyone ever love me again? Am I worthy of anyone's love? Could I live the rest of my life without ever being in another relationship? Will that be the case?

Some of those scare me. I'm a very shy person. I wouldn't even know how to approach a girl I felt attracted to. The relationships I've been in previously all just sort of happened. No one really tried to make it happen, it just did.

But, yeah, I was pretty depressed for a while. I didn't realize that I was showing it until a couple people on campus commented/questioned. I haven't felt this particular sort of sadness in two years. It's certainly one of the worst. You suddenly just feel lost and alone. There's always a certain dependency when you're in a relationship. When the relationship ends, a large part of your world is jerked away and you just feel confused and hurt. Times like this is when your faith really helps a lot, and takes away those feelings.

Yet, I guess there are certain times when there's nothing you can do about a situation involving other people, so you either change yourself or change situations. I'm not going to change.