Jason and I went to see Star Wars (8/10) and Spiderman (8/10) the other day. We stayed for the first showing, then saw the second.

I still feel horrible. I was with her for almost 2 years. I haven't talked to her for a few days, now. She never called back after we hung up around 6pm the day after her birthday (May 16). She never called back. I've been trying to keep my mind occupied. I've watched movies, read, talked a lot with my dad, other things. I realize now how much of my life she occupied. That's why it's so hard, I suppose. She was a large part of me, and that part is suddenly lacking.

One thing that helps me cope is the fact that millions of people go through this all the time. If I were younger and less mature I would probably see this as a unique case—surely no one has ever felt this bad! But I know that people go through things that hurt them much worse than this. Most people go through many relationships and trial and error boy/girlfriends. My first serious attempt didn't work out, and that places me within 99.6% of the population.

When you experience this type of hurt and sadness, remember that you're not unique in this, and that it will pass.

Maybe I shouldn't have devoted so much time to it.

There are endless questions I could ask myself, but that does no good. Time to stand up and continue.