This entry is going to sound pathetic. What else is new, right? Sam and I had a bad night last night. The reason? My paranoia. I've never had a real girlfriend before. This relationship is something very new to me. When I think about her not being with me it tears me apart because we've grown so incredilbly close. I really do love her, and I dont know what I'll do if we're ever not together. I was crying last night while I was thinking about it and all. I guess I'm way too sensitive about things...I've always been that way. I talked with Bethany a lot today about it. She basically told me that since this isn't Sam's first relationship (well, it's her first "serious" relationship), she doesn't worry like me because she realizes my devotion. Since I have no prior experience to help guage things, it's easier to exaggerate things. I think that's about the way things are right now.

So, I apologize to you, Sam. You know that I love you. My problems with faith and trust aren't about you, but simply the uncertain.